And his name shall be called....

25 weeks 6 days
40"

Well, as you can see from the title, our son finally has a name! Daniel Jarrett Brown III aka Trey! I finally talked to my assistant Pastors wife about my feelings on the name. They went through the loss off an infant also, so she is always the main person I go to for help. I told her about how Daniel was at work and the Lord showed him a vision out of no where. In it, the baby that I'm carrying now asked me what his name was. I told him it was the same as his daddy's name. When Daniel told me that, I knew that it had to be the Lord. I didn't want to fight against it, but was just uncomfortable with it. Meanwhile, The Lord showed Daniel more and more as he sought answers about the vision (which he saw as he was walking down the stairs at work). The more He revealed, the more Daniel was convinced that this had to be the name. He knew I wasn't comfortable with the idea so he never pressured me or anything. The Lord told him that I would come around. Mind you, I didn't know any of this until after I spoke to my pastors wife. She really helped me see that the feelings of guilt that I had was completely normal. I really liked the idea of the name, but was so afraid that I would always look at this baby with regret or sadness and guilt. I felt like we were taking Jarretts name since he wasn't here. She explained to me that, this baby really is going to fill that void I had with Jarrett, and that a lot of the reason why I feel this way is because I still have empty arms. But, when I have this baby, I am going to be so happy, that the sad and guilty emotions will be gone. She also said that his name isn't the same as Jarretts and that he will have his own identity. I told her that I had been praying for peace about the whole thing and she said that maybe He won't give me peace until I accept the idea of the name. Because, you can't have peace about something if you are fighting against it. She helped me a great deal that night. I told Daniel about it on our way home and that's when he told me more about this baby and the importance of his his name. Well, a couple days later, I was taking a nap, and right before I drifted off, the baby was moving around. I said something to him and called him Trey without even thinking about it. I was immediately filled with such an indescribable feeling of warmth and peace. It was the most amazing feeling! I knew then that I had finally accepted it! And now I say his name every chance I get! It's such a wonderful feeling! I love him so much and I wish these next few months would just fly by so I can put a face to his name! Aaaaaaaaaaaaah!