Well.....

Geez..I know its been like three months!! My bad.....no excuses of course...except things have been a little crazy lol. In all honesty, almost every moment that I have spent on the computer (when I have time) has been to do my school work. I barely even check my facebook on here! I use my phone for that lol. Sooooo much has happened since I last wrote. Lets see, where to start....
Well, we are no longer at the church that we have been attending for the past four years. I dont want to divulge too much information because its pretty bad, but lets just say that over half of the members that were attending the church (including us) have left. Since then, we have been attending another church after some long church hunting. That was a devastating time for us. We were really shocked, hurt, disappointed, betrayed..all the above. We were very active in our church and leaving it has left a big hole, but it was definitely for the good of our own souls. Moving on..
Well...remember last summer when I had a biopsy done on my throat to see if the lump on my thyroid was cancerous? The doctors couldnt get a clear result from just the biopsy so they said that I would have to have surgery to get the lump taken out. Then they would do a more thorough test to see if it was cancer. I had the surgery on Mar 29th and I am still recovering from it. The original results came back as the cyst being benign. But, a week later I found out that it was indeed Thyroid Cancer

Yes, I know..very shocking and upsetting. Thannkfully, the treatment for it isnt anything like undergoing chemotherapy or anything. I will have to go back under the knife so that they can take the left thyroid gland out (the first surgery was them taking the cyst along with my right thyroid gland). 6 weeks after that, I will undergo radiation iodine to make sure that the cells don't spread to the rest of my body. After  that treatment, I will have to stop breastfeeding and am advised not to get pregnant for at least 6 months afterwards. I am pretty upset about the whole thing, but am trusting God to help me through this just like he did when Jarrett died.

On to another subject: Tre!!!!!!! He is getting sooooo big!!!!! And more and more adorable!!!! He is seriously the joy of life!!!! I cant believe that he is all mine!!!! He has been hitting all of his milestones right on schedule!! He is rolling over now, "talking" sitting up, spitting, squealing (all the time) eating cereal with a spoon, reaching out to me when he wants me, and so much more!! It so funny when he wants to nurse (which is almost anytime I am holding him). He tries to reach in my shirt while laying his body down in the nursing position! He is soooo incredibly smart!!! I cant believe that I am about to have a 6 month old!!! Oh and he is also sleeping in his crib, as on two weeks ago!! He is still waking up twice a night but hopefully that will change soon! I thought I would have a really hard transition to him sleeping in the crib, but surprisingly he has done well. Im the one that has been struggling! LOL Its so weird not being able to see him the minute I wake up! And I HATE having to get out of bed to go feed him!!!!!!!!!
At his last appointment when he was just hitting 4 months, he was 15 lbs and 26 1/2". He has his 6mo shots coming up, and I am anxious to see how big he is gonna be!!!!!!!!! Ill try and post!

Sitting up 1st time (4mo)

first time holding a bottle

First Easter!!!!!

2 months old!!!!

As the title states, Tre is now two months old!!!!! 10 weeks 1 day to be exact. He is getting so big!!!!!!! I am completely loving life with him. I do wish that I had more sleep though lol, but, he is so worth it. I know that its been a while so let me try and update as best as I can. I have been so busy with the holidays and family and Tre and school and LIFE  that I can barely make time for a shower!!! LOL. I promise that I thought about updating a lot but, thinking about it was as far as I got lol. I would always end up doing something else! I am finally deciding to post instead of vacuum!! LOL
Lets see, breastfeeding is going amazing! Tre wishes he could eat every 1 1/2 to 2 hours, but since he was throwing up a lot cuz he was too full, his pediatrician told me to try and space his meals out to three hours apart. I have and the vomiting has stopped! I thought that when he started rooting around, that he was hungry, but apparently, babies just want to suck sometimes, which is where the pacifier comes in. But, we dont want him to get hooked on a pacifier so we only give it to him when he is wanting to eat and its not time yet. He does fine without it.
I am currently his favorite toy right now! He lights up in a huge grin whenever he see's me. The problem with that is that he ONLY wants to play with me and not any of his real toys lol. So, it makes things really hard to get things done cuz I have to keep him entertained! People are telling me that when he starts crying when I walk away, to just let him. Other people are saying he is too young for me to do that, and that I should wait till he is about 4 or 5 months old. I am going with the latter, and I dont let him cry too long. Is he spoiled? Hmmm...perhaps lol. But, he is a rainbow baby so I expect him to be spoiled a little bit
He is so much fun and I am loving being a mom again. Only this time, I can pick him up and hold him close to me whenever I feel the urge. I can change his diaper without fear of his heartrate dropping. I can brush his hair, and put clothes on him. This is all so surreal to me. I get so emotional sometimes when I think about how I wished I could do those things with Jarrett but couldnt. Thats why I feel so blessed to have Tre. He is feeling all those voids that I had. And it helps that sometimes I can catch a glimpse of Jarrett in him!
Speaking of Jarrett, Dec 18th was his first birthday. I cant even pretend like it wasnt hard. We went to his grave site that day. It was the first time that we did it since his burial and it was has hard as I thought it was going to be. I had a panic attack in the car and couldnt get out at first. And I had to have Daniel and his Jarrett and Tre's godmom on either side of me to help me walk to where he is buried. I could barely walk! It seemed like such a long journey to get to his spot. When we arrived, I completely lost it and fell to the ground. All I could think about was that my baby's body was so far away from me and it wasnt even his body anymore! I wouldnt allow myself to think about what his body looked like as it was decomposing. Instead, I tried to focus on how it looks in heaven. I imagined him sitting on Gods lap wrapped in His arms. I will see my baby again. I will.

Well, since I wasnt updating like I should here is a timeline of the events of Tre's life:
3 days okd- held his head up
1 week-smiled (gas?)
2 weeks- rolled over (no joke)
3- can lay on his stomach propped up on his arms on his own
6 weeks old- 10 10lbs 8oz 22 1/2
6 weeks- he starts smiling when talked to, and "talking"
7 weeks- noticed that he follows with his eyes very well
8 weeks- he can now do a full push up with his arms
10 weeks- favorite game is playing peek-a-boo with mommy

Everyone is tripping out about how advanced he is! Even his doctor! Eveyone has been trying to say, "He's just moving out the way for the next baby!" Shoot, he better go ahead and slow down then, cuz no more babies for me for a while! I been pregnant for two years in a row! Im good for a while lol

I just love him so much!!! I cant stand being away from him too long! And he is truly a booby baby!! I walk around with him hanging from my boobs all day long lol!! When he smiles at me, I feel like my heart is going to shatter! This is crazy!!! Im soooooo happy!!
Well, I will let this be all for now and try not to go two more months without updating!  :-)

Here are some pics:

 3 weeks old

4 weeks old

1 month old

1 month old

5 weeks old

6 weeks old

7 weeks old

8 weeks old

( With his second cousins)

10 weeks old