Lets see, breastfeeding is going amazing! Tre wishes he could eat every 1 1/2 to 2 hours, but since he was throwing up a lot cuz he was too full, his pediatrician told me to try and space his meals out to three hours apart. I have and the vomiting has stopped! I thought that when he started rooting around, that he was hungry, but apparently, babies just want to suck sometimes, which is where the pacifier comes in. But, we dont want him to get hooked on a pacifier so we only give it to him when he is wanting to eat and its not time yet. He does fine without it.
I am currently his favorite toy right now! He lights up in a huge grin whenever he see's me. The problem with that is that he ONLY wants to play with me and not any of his real toys lol. So, it makes things really hard to get things done cuz I have to keep him entertained! People are telling me that when he starts crying when I walk away, to just let him. Other people are saying he is too young for me to do that, and that I should wait till he is about 4 or 5 months old. I am going with the latter, and I dont let him cry too long. Is he spoiled? Hmmm...perhaps lol. But, he is a rainbow baby so I expect him to be spoiled a little bit
He is so much fun and I am loving being a mom again. Only this time, I can pick him up and hold him close to me whenever I feel the urge. I can change his diaper without fear of his heartrate dropping. I can brush his hair, and put clothes on him. This is all so surreal to me. I get so emotional sometimes when I think about how I wished I could do those things with Jarrett but couldnt. Thats why I feel so blessed to have Tre. He is feeling all those voids that I had. And it helps that sometimes I can catch a glimpse of Jarrett in him!
Speaking of Jarrett, Dec 18th was his first birthday. I cant even pretend like it wasnt hard. We went to his grave site that day. It was the first time that we did it since his burial and it was has hard as I thought it was going to be. I had a panic attack in the car and couldnt get out at first. And I had to have Daniel and his Jarrett and Tre's godmom on either side of me to help me walk to where he is buried. I could barely walk! It seemed like such a long journey to get to his spot. When we arrived, I completely lost it and fell to the ground. All I could think about was that my baby's body was so far away from me and it wasnt even his body anymore! I wouldnt allow myself to think about what his body looked like as it was decomposing. Instead, I tried to focus on how it looks in heaven. I imagined him sitting on Gods lap wrapped in His arms. I will see my baby again. I will.
Well, since I wasnt updating like I should here is a timeline of the events of Tre's life:
3 days okd- held his head up
1 week-smiled (gas?)
2 weeks- rolled over (no joke)
3- can lay on his stomach propped up on his arms on his own
6 weeks old- 10 10lbs 8oz 22 1/2
6 weeks- he starts smiling when talked to, and "talking"
7 weeks- noticed that he follows with his eyes very well
8 weeks- he can now do a full push up with his arms
10 weeks- favorite game is playing peek-a-boo with mommy
Everyone is tripping out about how advanced he is! Even his doctor! Eveyone has been trying to say, "He's just moving out the way for the next baby!" Shoot, he better go ahead and slow down then, cuz no more babies for me for a while! I been pregnant for two years in a row! Im good for a while lol
I just love him so much!!! I cant stand being away from him too long! And he is truly a booby baby!! I walk around with him hanging from my boobs all day long lol!! When he smiles at me, I feel like my heart is going to shatter! This is crazy!!! Im soooooo happy!!
Well, I will let this be all for now and try not to go two more months without updating! :-)
Here are some pics:
1 month old
1 month old
5 weeks old
6 weeks old
7 weeks old
( With his second cousins)
10 weeks old
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