The end is near!!!

36 weeks 2 days 

A friend posted this on my Facebook wall and I thought it was hilarious: KEEP CALM I AM 36 WEEKS PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!
 4 weeks till my due date! The end is near!!! It's right around the corner omg omg omg omg omg omg!!!!!!

I am so happy to be almost done but I am getting more and more anxious and nervous. I am terrified of what life is gonna be like with three small kids, I'm gonna be honest. I know that others have done it, are doing it, and will continue to do it, so I know it's possible but...I'm still nervous!!! I have a friend who just recently had her fourth baby and her oldest is only 3. She iis amaaaazing to me with all of the kids. She has a calm demeanor that I pray that I will one day possess. I look at her with the kids and It does give me some encouragement to watch her with them. I keep telling myself and praying that I remain confident and don't let those babies see the fear in my eyes lololol!! 
But, I think I am pretty prepared at this point. I have everything washed, folded, and hung up. I still have to organize the closet where all the diapers will be, pack the rest of our hospital bag, and get our room set up for the new guest who will be staying in there for the next 4 or 5 months. But, that's about all!!

On a pregnancy note, I DONT WANT TO BE PREGNANT ANYMORE!!!!!! The pain and pressure in my vagoogle is so intense that I can't stand it! This boy is so low that I feel like I could just reach up in there and pull him out. The indigestion and heartburn is pretty much unmanageable at this point. I have to eat so slow that it takes me an hour to finish a dang sandwich to avoid feeling like my food is stuck in my throat!! Uggggghhhhh. My bladder feels like it constantly is being crushed as flat as a pancake and I can't ever get comfortable enough to sleep and stay sleep so I'm perpetually tired. And I feel like my nausea is back...Ugh you know, all that fun 9 months pregnant stuff :) 

You know what's weird? I have been panicking and freaking out about this baby coming early but now that I am at this stage at 36 weeks, I feel like this kid is gonna decide to reside in my hoo-hah like past my due date!!!!! Like, I don't feel any new or stronger signs of impending labor. Aside from a scary incident at 34 weeks where We were at the hospital until 2 am because of thinking my water broke, I haven't even had to make any hospital trips lol. I feel like by this time with my other pregnancies, I was having moments of false labor, like where my contractions would suddenly pick up in intensity and become regular then stop. This time I still have at least 3 or 4 contractions an hour but nothing has changed with them in the last 3 weeks. With Anaiya, at 36 weeks, I was afraid to move I was having so many contractions lol....I declined to be checked on Monday  but once I hit 37 weeks, the game is on!!! She can check me, and I'm gonna start walking to hopefully get things moving!!! I'm getting excited about meeting this lil man though!