And we haven't even moved again...yet

But, here I am currently 10 weeks pregnant!
After my second miscarriage in Feb 2017, I decided to go on birth control for a year.  The plan was after that year, we would decide if we should end my child birthing years, or have one more. For the longest time, I knew that I was done. I couldn't imagine the possibility of more heartache. Didn't even want to try one more time. I was convinced that we were done. I was really beginning to look forward to finally stepping out of the baby stage! It was something that seemed so far away yet so close! Levi was approaching two and I could see myself leaving the house without packing snacks and a diaper bag lol! I was very hopeful that Daniel would begin to see that this was right. That we were done with this stage in our lives. He was still convinced that we weren't. I waited and waited for the day that he would come to me and tell me he was ready to get the big snip snip!! As I waited and waited, slowly I begin to feel MY heart change on the matter. I begin to have little snippets of baby fever. I kept brushing it off as emotions that will change. But, it was something I couldn't ignore. I had questioned so many women who had made the decision already to be done having children; those who had wide gaps in ages with their children; those who had large families already, but still were comfortable with the idea of having another. I wanted to know how I would know when I was done having kids. The consensus was: I would know when I was done. There would be no doubt or lingering feelings of regret. I waited for that feeling. It never came. Instead, I begin longing for another. I begin to feel like my family wasn't complete. I could no longer ignore Tre and Anaiya when they would express their desire for another sibling. I told my husband how I felt around Christmas time of last year. We revisited the subject sometime in January and made a decision. My birth control pill prescription would end in March. I wouldn't renew it. I would take my last pill and we would see what happens. Two weeks after I took my last pill, I suspected that I might be ovulating and that we should take advantage of it. Literally 10 days after that, we were looking at these two positive pregnancy tests!

I must admit, I was so shocked that it happened that fast. We had recently put our house on the market and was caught up in the whirlwind of decluttering/packing and showing the house multiple times throughout the week. I can usually tell when I am pregnant pretty early so I was already on the lookout for symptoms. I wasn't sure if I had really even ovulated either, so I was still slightly skeptical. Easter morning I was brushing my teeth and noticed my gums were bleeding. ( My gums only ever bleed when Im pregnant). I was rushing and my mind was on our Easter program that the kids were participating in, so I didn't even think anything about it. That Tuesday I woke up feeling horrible. Just really tired. More so than usual. Tired as in, I fell back asleep while the kids were eating breakfast, then fell asleep in the car while the kids were at their P.E class, then fell asleep sitting straight up on the couch after the kids had gone down for nap/quiet time! I also felt a little off. I started to wonder if I was pregnant. Told a couple of friends who knew that we were trying. I didn't want to get too excited in case I was wrong. Later that evening I went to Walmart, and when I walked past the baby aisle on my way to get some milk, the feeling that I had been waiting for to confirm that Im pregnant..happened. The feeling of pregnancy washed over me. It was so strong. Im usually never wrong so I went ahead and ordered prenatal vitamins that evening! The next day I plotted on how to tell Daniel. I wanted to take the test with him, but I still wanted to surprise him, somehow. I was taking the kids to an Easter Egg giveaway with a homeschool group at a McDonald's across from his job. I had a blue egg and a pink egg; inside I wrote "Is it a Boy?" (blue egg) and "Is it a girl?" (pink egg). I told him to meet me there, since the kids would go bananas when they saw daddy walk through the door. He came and of course the kids were incredibly excited to see him. They love when he shows up somewhere we're already at. I gave him the eggs and told him that the kids wanted him to have some eggs too. He opened them and immediately knew what they were. He was incredibly excited and told me that the was going to have a grin on his face for the rest of the day!

That night I went to the store after Bible Study and took both tests. We both laughed and I screamed and cried off and on for the rest of the night! WE'RE HAVING A BABY!


Over the next few days, the fear and worry set in. I took multiple tests to make sure that my levels were going up by the lines getting darker and darker

We were going to tell our parents and siblings after the first ultrasound at 7 weeks

Here is the little bean then:

But, then my doctor set up a follow up ultrasound at 9 weeks to confirm that there was just one ( was kinda freaked out by that) and to make sure that the baby was developing properly. So after that ultrasound, we used the pics to let our families know by mailing it to them!

Look! There's a gummy bear in my belly!! 

It was so exciting to see the baby moving around so much. I must admit that right before both ultrasounds I had a hard time catching my breath for fear of looking at the screen and seeing a baby who had passed again. (I still have very vivid memories of that horrific day)

I am going into my 11th week in a few days. Overall, it hasn't been too bad. I have days where I feel pretty bad. But, surprisingly , once I take my nausea meds, I manage to make it the rest of the day/night. Before, my nausea meds only kept me from throwing up and didn't necessarily take away the nausea. But, this time it actually makes me feel better! I will say that I am incredibly tired allllllllll the time. It kinda makes me a little miserable. But, I will take exhaustion over extreme nausea any day. I would take the meds everyday if they didn't make me so constipated. So some days, I just deal with it it, unless I can't deal with it lol. I have all of the other typical pregnancy symptoms too. I will try to update every two weeks. Here are weeks 6 and 8 pics. Yes I look like crap. I told you...Im tyyyyyyyyyerrrrrrrrrrdddddd!

We still haven't told the kids yet. We are in the process of moving to another house and told them that we have a big surprise for them when we get to the new house. They are going to be so excited. As you can see, I already have some roundness going on in my belly and my oldest is convinced that there is a baby in my belly lol. I caught him whispering to Anaiya that he thinks her baby sister is in my belly! smh I have been coming up with excuses every time he asks lol.

We are so excited this time. It such a different feeling when you plan it versus being caught by surprise!